goodbye

i just buried spotty under the snow. it's been snowing all day here today. he was the second spotty frog. it was when the first spotty, a dwarf frog, died that we got the tadpoles. i blogged about it. that's what this is. you can scroll down to read the story, from the bottom up, in chronological order, if you'd like.

anyway, the first few times i thought he was dead, and went to fish him out of the tank, he started moving around. noticed he hadn't moved in a few hours, and figured that was that. it was. i feel better now.

the skinny one is still hanging in there. he looks so old. so worn out. the other three seem fine now. not entirely sure what happened. we'll keep a close watch on them.

goodbye

i don't know why some people have to make fun of every perceived weakness in everyone else. i don't know why, if you show these people your soft underbelly, why do they always have to poke at it ever after?

my frogs are dying. i am sad and upset about this. three of them might make it, but the other two are definitely goners. i'm going to have to bury my pets today. they taught me a lot. and now i have to let them go, a good bit sooner than i thought i would. goodbye has never come easy for me. and when it's goodbye forever, that is far and away more difficult.

i'll be okay. eventually. right now i need some time alone if i can't have a shoulder to cry on. and today i can have neither of those things. i have to go to the dentist instead.